“Drinking breast milk?”
I nodded, with a half-overjoyed, half-nervous smile that seemed to convey a sense of “Pay dirt. You win. You got me. No more beating around the bush.” I had just directed her to a Christ-centered ANR post where the Shulammite woman discusses feeding her bridegroom some wine/juice squeezed from her pomegranates.
There was no more keeping her in suspense. With that, I finally laid all my cards on the table. This smart lady now immediately knew exactly what my deep, hidden desire, that took what must have seemed like an eternity to reveal, was.
“Sounds erotic,” she fancied, her voice clearly impassioned and sincere.
“I have sensitive breasts,” she cautioned, while yet somewhat excited.
“That’s why God gave you breasts,” I gently and happily retorted, in an attempt to persuade.
To this, she pensively reiterated “I have sensitive nipples.”
She paused contemplatively to skim a recent Christ-centered ANR post and take it all in. It was all new to her.
“Sounds erotic,” her tone still as raw, honest and passionate as at first.
I was sure to preface the entire conversation with “husband and wife should be this close,” tightly clasping my hands to demonstrate. She readily agreed with that sentiment.
So went the tail end of our date, in plain sight in a busy Tim Hortons. It was a frigid afternoon on a January 8 late last decade. The customers engrossed in ordering their Timbits and coffees were none the wiser.
She had earlier confided in me on how badly she missed having sex post-conversion, this for her being one of the hardest things about the single Christian life.
Her interest in this unique intimacy was certainly piqued, as she accepted my parting suggestion to do some clean research on Couples Nursing, especially by visiting a certain Christian blog.
“I learned something today,” she remarked with a smile, seconds before we exchanged goodbye hugs in sub-zero temperatures, amid shoveled mounds of snow in the Tim’s parking lot.
Our date is proof that prospective Christian couples can meet in a well-lit public venue like a restaurant and verbally explore a lifestyle for marrieds only, without falling into sexual sin. As mentioned in previous posts, the key is to first spend a great deal of time on spiritual topics and other non-intimate subjects, and never take it beyond conversation. I thank God that with all the talk about her breasts and nipples, I didn’t begin fantasizing about her body parts or view her any less, in fact I only respected her more as a dear sister in Christ who trusted me enough to be vulnerable with her sexuality and sexual struggles. Praise God for his work of sanctification. As a new believer, there’s no way I could have held that conversation without stumbling horribly. As I’ve grown in Christ, I’ve come to see the wisdom in discussing such deeply longed-for conjugal blessings. It’s even more important to do this verbal exploration with a subject like Couples Nursing, which God encourages but most Christians haven’t even heard of.
Ms. C., if you ever read this, your reaction to learning about CN was worth a thousand words, and highly dignified and commendable. I’m glad to have met a godly woman who’s secure in her sexuality and has a healthy sex drive.
I have a lot of respect for women like you, who are open-minded and sex-positive in ways that honor Christ, especially regarding a topic as intimate and uncommon as Husband Breastfeeding.
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